An incident happened today that I just can't seem to shake and get rid of. You see to me it was innocent and a misunderstanding. Now I am just wondering if I will be shunted off to the Ostracism corner as well.
For me it started when Smiles came to me crying. She had been swinging with some friends of hers after school at the play park and they had started teasing her. Naturally it was dealt with and she went back to the swings. Leh (as I will call this mom)has been not getting sleep this week and her voice started to go. So I offered to round up her child and get him going because she had to leave. What I found was that he was still teasing my daughter and Leh made him apologize to Smiles for calling her a Loser! The next bit that gets me is that she was trying to get Crispy (the boy's pseudonym) to look at Smiles so she could accept his apology but instead he kept playing with Eyes. She told him to not touch babies after playing in the sand. Since he was not listening to her (which he had been doing since getting to the play park) I simply said "You need to ask the Mother's permission before playing with a baby". Seemed like a simple rule to me. To which Leh stormed off for trying to discipline her child when all I felt was that I had been reinforcing what she had told him. I guess somehow I offended her and I have no idea how.
When I got back home I sent a message to her on facebook apologizing for any unintended insult I may have given her. The thing is I do not know if she will be reasonable or if she will have even read the message or worse read it and took even greater offense at it. Sigh! So the crux of the matter is that I am dreading tomorrow morning and the reactions of the other Kindergarten Moms as well as Leh's. So Babyjail I know you had something like this happen to you awhile ago and I just wanted to let you know your not alone in situations like these. You see I have a hard time socializing and getting into a crowd. Introducing myself and actually talking to others without feeling like I have intruded upon their circle is very difficult for me. So now that I have finally seemed to have been accepted into this circle of Kindergarten Moms I am left with the feeling that I am still an outsider.
And the worst thing of all is I know why I feel like this. It's called post partum depression and all I want to do is cry.
Circle of Friends
Can you forgive me for being so rude
All I want is to talk to you.
I see you every day
Walking to and fro.
Was something I said so horribly crude
that you can not spare a moment, not one, or a few?
For my mistakes I pay
and always will I suppose.
Your circle of friends are yours
and only yours.
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yikes! HUG!!! I'm sorry that that happened. Your comment seemed reasonable to me! Hopefully she'll calm down and understand you didnt mean any offense by it. She may have overreacted too because she realized her kid was not behaving appropriately. Try not to take it too hard. I hear you about the post partum depresson. Today when I went to the school to drop off Connor, Amy came up and I could see she had been crying. Noone wanted to team with her at gym and the teacher didnt do anything about it. After getting her settled, I bawled in the car (even typing this I'm getting all weepy). I fired off an email to the school when I got home (couldnt find the gym teacher to talk to when I was at the school). I know its hormones making me more emotional, but stilll....
anyway, HUG! Love ya lots, remember most people are idiots, and the ones who are important care alot about you!
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